It's so hot. I hope you're all bearing the heat well, Mum finally caved and turned on the air-con, so I'm good now. But I wouldn't have survived school without my fan. In teh new school it seems lots of girls bring those Chinese/Japanese fans to school.
The classes were mostly good. I love my teachers for English and Economics (very humourous, and makes the lesson fun). The Maths teacher is alright, but everyone calls her Miss Mas (get it, Miss Mas? Miss Maths? Okay, it was lame. I made that joke with the person sitting next to me). The Chemistry teacher was good, but she's leaving in a week. The Physics teacher has gotten another job and it'll take at least 6 weeks to get another one. Our substitude also knows Physics, but I don't really get the way he teaches.
I love English, I love Economics, Maths I don't have a problem with. But Chemistry and Physics are making me feel like I'm up in the air. It's the same feeling I get when I'm walking around by myself at lunch and recess, a bit lost and insecure. It's like I don't have soild ground beneath me. Chemistry is better than Physics, but I find that I don't remember some of the things I've learnt before, and some things they have done, I haven't.
When I'm in English or Economics, I feel good, I enjoy it like I do when I had classes at Hurlstone. But in Chemistry and Physics, I feel bewildered and a little afraid. I don't know if it's such a good idea anymore to change schools in year 11 when it's so important.
If I were in Hurlstone I wouldn't have to worry about anything other than my classes. I would be mroe familiar with the teacher's teaching style, I would be used to it. Even if I didn't get it, I would be secure and familiar enough to ask questions, stay back in class, make jokes. I could talk with friends, ask them questions, I could relax at recess and lunch. I don't talk with anyone in class right now. I'm just not used to that. I feel like I'm walking on clouds and they're not solid under my feet and they might just crumble at any time. I only feel like I'm on solid ground and when I can relax is when I'm in English or Economics. Right now, the only thing I'm look forward to when going to school is those two lessons.
Anyway, enough of that, it's only the second day. It'll probably get better. I'm thinking of not doing Chemistry of Physics. Like I said before, I prefer the humanities to the sciences. I'll sit through a few more lessons to see if I really don't like it.
I'm sorry about this, I don't like that I'm thinking and feeling like this. I knew that I don't like unplanned change, but I thought I could handle it, it would be really really bad if I got so stressed I can't study well anymore, in such an important year too! I started out cheerful and writing so much about the things I found interesting in the new school which I'll post tomorrow, but the mood deteriorated and it became this.
I just feel a little out of place and like I don't belong, so I really miss Hurlstone and my friends. I feel better now that I've written it all out. I haven't said any of this to my Mum, but it'll get better, it'll get better. Hopefully I'll say a couple of days later that "I was over-reacting in that post a few days before, everything's good now", haha.