|Noise From Silence 3 by Shel-yang|
I've always known how comforting a routine is. I know what to do at a certain time, and if I keep to the routine there's little chance of things going wrong. I feel like I'm back on solid ground and I'm familiar enough to walk along the path without looking around every step of the way. So, changing schools was not the nightmare I anticipated, it's not as horrible as I thought even though I don't know if the benefits will be as good as Mum and Grandma claims.
I'm even chatting with people in class and in group work, a girl automatically included me in her group. She counted me to be in a group with her before anyone else. That's something I'm so grateful for. In class group work everyone naturally gathers with their usual group, and I'm so used to being able to do that myself too. I hate having to walk around wanting someone to take me in like I'm some left over abandoned puppy. To have someone ask for me first in a new school is a good beginning.
How strange to think the first day was only three weeks ago. I never would have expected a person like me to settle down so quickly. I don't know if I've overestimated how shy I would be or underestimated how genuinely nice people are.
I'm reading back on the posts this month, and I guess the experiences have been interesting. We're learning about Changing Self in English, and I would say that for me, this is one turning point. I'll always miss Hurlstone, but I've realised now that I can survive in Sydney Girls too. I've realised that I can cope with this, and I suppose that self-realisation is important. In a new environment where I knew no one, I'm able to find for myself a place I'm comfortable with.
I still don't know most people's names, but that's okay, I'll learn, one step at a time.